Chocolate Tipped Fingers

Eugh!  I don't know what I hate more right now... Uni, chocolate or myself!

It's coming up to the end of semester and assessment items are piling up causing me to fall further and further behind, stressing me out more and more!  I have decided to stay at uni until I finish an assignment that is due on Friday which meant heading to the cafeteria to purchase dinner... My dinner consisted of a ham and cheese croissant and peanut butter  m&m's.  This semester I have been so good with my stress eating and lolly snacking... That's the first time that I can think of all term that I have turned to sugary treats to calm my stress levels.  I am beginning to recognise that sugar is not the way to fix everything... If I want to fix things, I actually have to work on them shock horror!

Anyway, I'm scribbling away and all of a sudden I just get this massive pain in my stomach and the urge to purge (don't worry, I didn't...)  I hate myself so much for chowing down on such an unhealthy meal, especially since there is no way I will have time to work it off when I get home, nor have I done any exercise today besides walking around campus.

I'm slowly realising that we can't keep punishing ourselves for slipping up or using it as an excuse to keep binging because "we've messed up the week, what's the use eating healthy now? I'll start again next monday".  It was my fault that I didn't have any healthy snack on hand and I am going to take full responsibilities for my actions and know that I just have to work super hard the rest of the week to make up for it.

I am super sorry if this blog didn't make any sort of logical sense... I have a chocolate headache right now... Yipee...