A Merry-Go-Round In My Mind

Tonight is just one of those nights where my mind is whirling around and around.  My thoughts are tumbling over each other and my imagination just won't turn off for the night.  I hate how my mind is always most active the nights I need to actually need to be awake early the next day.  Bootcamp tomorrow morning.  Currently dreading the early start!

I've been laying in bed since 9 trying to drift off, but here it is... 11:30 and wide awake.  I've been texting the best friend for majority of the night which just reinforces how much I miss home... Maybe that's why I can't sleep.

So, I went to the dietician yesterday and unfortunately I didn't lose the 2kg as planned... Only lost 1.1kg. BUT!  That's better than nothing... That's better than GAINING 1.1kg.  She encouraged me to amp up my workouts to get maximum results.  I am currently working out at Curves 3-5 times a week, occasionally go for a walk or jog and do bootcamp 2 times a week.  It's time to start incorporating weights though to really kick up my fat burning and I also need to start jogging for 10-20 minutes before breakfast.  I left her office feeling so inspired to keep going.  I felt so on track.

This morning I woke up and went for a 15 minute jog and clocked up 2.5km which was a pretty poor effort, but anyway.  It's only early days!  Things were going really well up until lunch time when my healthy beef salad was ruined with a bowl of ice-cream and a muesli bar.  Never fear though, all was not lost.  It was only lunch time, I had time to try and undo my damage.  I sucked up the motivation to start my weight training... Today was legs and shoulders.  Man oh man it was hard!  But, at the end of it I felt good and could actually see how it will speed up the results.  I then talked myself into going for a workout despite the fact I was exhausted.  It never fails to amaze me how you never, ever regret a workout.  I didn't have the energy to go as hard as usual, but by the end of it I had still worked up a sweat and was feeling good.

I don't understand why I sometimes get these uncontrollable urges to just eat crap food.  I know that it's not good for me and that it's doing a ton of damage, but no matter how hard I try I usually end up caving in.

I'm sorry that my posts are so all over the place, but blogging really helps smooth things out in my mind.

Well, I'm no closer to getting to sleep, but my mind is a lot less cluttered now.  Should probably go back to bed and try to get some decent sleep before bootcamp in the morning.  Night!